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I don't usually post a whole lot here to begin with, but you may not hear or see much of me for a little while, unless you know me in person. Unfortunately, today, a mere 20 minutes after I arrived home from work, my dog passed away after having two seizures. He had been sent to intensive care to try and recover his failing kidneys, but we think the stress of not being around his family was too great for him and he was unable to handle it. (All they gave him was fluids.) My parents said he'd been acting strange after he came home this afternoon, he'd been trying to find places to hide, following my mom closely (as if dependent upon her), and wouldn't sit still, eat, or drink. My other dog seemed to sense something was wrong, and she would check on him, then keep her distance, which was also unusual behavior from her.

The last two days I didn't get to spend much time with him, he was fine on Thursday, and my dad hadn't woken me up to tell me he was taking Buddy in, so the last time I saw him he was asleep on my bed, coming in to see him laying on a mat after having a seizure was probably the worst thing, and I sat with him, went downstairs to change after a lot of prompting from my mother, and by the time I came upstairs, he had stopped breathing.

So no, I will likely not respond to a lot of things for a while, nor will I be very productive in school for the next few weeks. I'll see if there's anything I'm able to accomplish, if at all, otherwise, my week prior to this had already been filled with anxiety and depression, and now I just feel broken and numb and need to recover. My dear Buddy was the major go-to for when I hit my extreme low points in my depression cycles and would let me cling to him if I was anxious. Without him, it's going to be extremely hard to try and get better, but he wouldn't want me to give up, so I'll try to keep his smiling face in mind if I need it for motivation.

I also am going to apologize in advance to my dear partner, because I may become somewhat emotionally dependent upon them for a little while during my recovery. My other dog has done a good job so far of stepping up to help us in Buddy's place, but we'll see what happens from here.

Hopefully, I won't take too long to recover, and if I do take longer than anticipated, hopefully I can still manage to do schoolwork and not break down at work. Here's hoping for the best.

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kanerasoi
Swift
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I suppose I'll update this thing, might as well, right?

Well, I'm Swift, and I enjoy Science Fiction and Fantasy, mostly. The real world kind of throws me for a loop, and causes me a lot of depression and anxiety. I haven't been posting as often as I should, but if I can gather enough inspiration and suppress feelings of worthlessness, I can definitely upload a few things at a time! Some days I gather enough inspiration to spam your messages, most days you won't hear from me at all.

I sometimes enjoy chatting (please be kind in doing so) and sometimes want to be left alone. Nonetheless, if you have a question, don't hesitate to ask, just know it may be a while before I get back to you. I tried adoptable-making, and am now refraining from doing so. I would do commissions if I had the time/patience/motivation to do so, and unfortunately that isn't the case at the moment, and may not be for a while.

I tend to draw fan art and OCs, and am consistently messing around with different styles. Mostly, you'll find quick sketches here, as those are sometimes all I can exert myself to do. I've slowly been building the patience to paint things and mess with lighting and effects.

Oh, one more thing, I am studying game design! Not that much of the work you see here will be in games in the future, but they do fuel many of the things I draw.

If you read this all, you get a [fake] medal and some souls. Have a wonderful day.
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TheGhostInHope Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2014  New member Hobbyist Digital Artist
Decided to drop by and let you know that you're wanted, that you're never alone. You're perfect the way you are, you're interesting, what you do is good enough. You're good enough. Don't listen to what negative things people have to say, ignore them and listen to your heart. Listen to those that tell you positive things about yourself even if you don't believe them. They tell you that because they care about you and 9 times out of 10, it's true. Don't give up, don't forget who you are. You're wanted, you have a purpose. You deserve every good thing you get, You deserve better. Have a good day. Enjoy yourself. Take time off, give yourself a break. You can't work yourself as hard as you do, take breaks. Take care of yourself. You're wanted.

You're unique.

The world loves you.
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kanerasoi Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Thank you, I just really need some time to heal and reassuring statements like yours are always helpful. I've actually been struggling with my depression for 10 years now, some days it's easier than others, but after yesterday with my dog, well, I just have to focus on recovering as much as I can for now.

So thank you.
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nemalo Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2014  Student
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kanerasoi Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2014  Student Digital Artist
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nemalo Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2014  Student
HELLO.
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kanerasoi Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2014  Student Digital Artist
OH HELLO
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nemalo Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2014  Student
SO WHAT IS UP?
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kanerasoi Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Not much. You?
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AxisEnigma Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
Thx fur th fov hurhur
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kanerasoi Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2014  Student Digital Artist
nur fov fur yoo
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